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[29Nov♥05@11:17am] |
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5 months is too long.
each day is a little closer to you,
i hope.
Terror and I miss you more than words can describe.
Today we rejoice what you were able to give us
for the short time you were here.
My heart is broken for good, i fear.
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| I miss my best friend. |
[27Nov♥05@09:58pm] |
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My name is Jessika and I am a fountain of brightly colored, mixed emotions pouring down like confetti in a crowded room.
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| heres a lesson on cleaning:101. |
[08Nov♥05@08:50pm] |
Ive never been so motivated about my career in all of my life.
im glad i have such an amazing person that is so far ahead of me
in my life as an educator, mentor, motivator, friend and ...
Im going to start taking more Paul Mitchell classes,
she told me i can assist her in some of her classes shes teaching
Im going to go to a Paul Mitchell Expert class next month..
Im so stoked.
I took a Paul Mitchell Core Color class yesterday,
learned alot.
So glad to be working with them.
My life might be kicking back into gear any minute now.
Im realizing who and what i need in my life
and who and what i want to eliminate from my life as well.
ah, oh well.
have a beautiful night everyone.
ps. - i love you and think of you every day.
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[3] stare at me now on your way down.
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| a few beers and heartaches later... |
[02Nov♥05@09:29am] |
What ways are there to turn to-
What turns are there ways to find?
I want this state of mind
.nostalgia.
Positive. Nostalgia.
This is a feeling of
discontent. confusion.
This burden sings
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[2] stare at me now on your way down.
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| Welcome to my life. (one week without power. sick!) |
[31Oct♥05@10:38pm] |
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Nothing. Enjoying the silence. |
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As the winter slowly approaches,
the memories start to become clearer
of the times christy, nelly and I would go
to Miami Twice looking for costumes...
Or when we rented the room out at Fountain Blue...
Or last year when Steve and I carved pumpkins together
like 5 times in one week so I could bake him the pumpkin seeds.
And he painted my face so I could
go around Miami Springs and get us candy to eat.
(I still have your mask in my room not opened. Still waiting for you.)
I woke up this morning and cried my way into work
knowing that its not the same. (the 29th. = 4 months.):sigh:
And although tonight hanging out with
Christy, Adam, James and Masciel brought back
:great: comforting memories..
I cant help but talk about you and think
about how things were.
What we had was beautiful.
Your SST hat still has your scent all over it.
I wish it didn't fade..
And I wish you were here.
I took for granted every minute I ever got to look at you.
God. You are/were/will be my life forever.
Gotses. Mi Amor.
: Now im waiting for Terror to come home so I can fall asleep with her. Knowing your heartbeat still coincides with ours.:
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| Scarf weather. Coming soon. |
[18Oct♥05@03:05pm] |
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I couldnt have asked for a better night last night. I ended up going out with Masciel and her friends to bowl at Strikers and Christy was there too, so we ended up talking for about 2 hours and sorting everything out. Im so glad to have her in my life again. And im glad that she understood everything in the end. I woke up today feeling alot better about situations in my life. Flip ended up driving me home but we got pulled over for not stopping fully at a flashing red light. So we got 2 beers and sat in my driveway for like an hour and a half talking about California and spirituality. Hes a really cool kid and I love talking to him so its cool well be living in CALI around the same time!
ps: I miss Adam Huss. I want to see you soon. ):
xo
I think im finally ready to come out of the rock ive been under for 3 months...well try at least. Thank you to everyone who has been helping me and who has helped me through
all of this, you were not forgotten..I just lost myself for a while there. I love you all.
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[17Oct♥05@08:43pm] |
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ps: Jessika Foster is a Shady Mgrady?
Naahh.
I just dont like answering my phone.
So shut yo mouf.
Suckas.
pss: I will be your friend. Boys are stupid and girls are cute. And I am not shady.
Going bowling with Masciel and others. Wish it was like old times. But it just isnt the same I guess...
:sigh:
chow! XO
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[15Oct♥05@08:54pm] |
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b to the york. |
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Im a bad dream....in the shape of a girl.
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going to poplife tonight to celebrate effies birthday.
see you all there!
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i thought id flow a little poetry for you guys.
=
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let me carve your body into a shape
that fits perfectly like a puzzle
defined yet beautifully align with mine
and as the toxins seep through our veins
and begin to blur these visions we once had
to wait and never rush this feeling
we have for one another
are suddenly at an incoherent halt.
pick up the pieces of my broken down heart.
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What an intense day.
im glad you are here to pick me up.
thanks, girl.
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